Beautiful Heartbreak

This is almost a follow-up post to my post titled "Food for Thought-Faith."  This is a very inspirational and uplifting song.  The music video features the woman that was burned in the plane crash that I mentioned in the above post as well as other individuals who have overcome struggles and trials.

Here are the lyrics is to the song.  I find that even by reading the words they are just as powerful as Hillary Weeks' voice singing them.

I had it all mapped out in front of me,
Knew just where I wanted to go;
But life decided to change my plans,
And I found a mountain in the middle of my road.

I knew there was no way over it,
So I searched for a way around;
Brokenhearted I started climbin',
And at the top I found...

Every fear, every doubt,
All the pain I went through;
Was the price that I paid to see this view;
And now that I'm here I would never trade...

The grace that I feel,
And the faith that I find;
Through the bitter-sweet tears,
And the sleepless nights;
I used to pray he'd take it all away,
But instead it became a beautiful heartbreak.
I never dreamed my heart would make it,
I thought about turning around;
But heaven has shown me miracles,
I never would have seen from the ground.

Now I take the rain with the sunshine,
Cause there's one thing that I know;
He picks up the pieces,
Along each broken road.

Every fear, every doubt,
All the pain I went through;
Was the price that I paid to see this view;
And now that I'm here I would never trade...

The grace that I feel,
And the faith that I find;
Through the bitter-sweet tears,
And the sleepless nights.

I used to pray he'd take it all away,
But instead it became a beautiful heartbreak.

I would never trade...
The grace that I feel,
And the faith that I find;
Through the bitter-sweet tears,
And the sleepless nights.

I used to pray he'd take it all away,
But instead it became a beautiful heartbreak.

I have been listening to this song a lot the past few days as I have thought about the "mountains" in my life that have encountered in my road.  I think my road can be compared to the Rocky Mountains or a roller coaster.  I feel that I reach the peak of each mountain and get to realize the view and the blessings and then I get to start all over.  I am not complaining.  I know there are others that have trials and struggles way beyond what I have been asked to bear.  I only hope that each time I climb a mountain, I am learning what Heavenly Father wants me learn.

Today is the anniversary of the death of our baby boy, Ryan.  Not once in the last year have I asked why we have had to go through this loss and pain or why Ryan was needed on the Other Side.  I have spent most of the last year trying to learn and grow.  I am not sure if I have learned all the lessons that Heavenly Father has wanted me to, but I can pray and hope that my faith has been strengthened and that I have come to lean and rely more on my Savior for help, strength, comfort, and peace.

Though I miss my angel terribly and I pray that I never have to experience this type of loss again, "I would never trade, The grace that I feel and the faith that I find through the bitter-sweet tears and the sleepless nights."  I would much rather have Ryan here with us on the earth but I am very grateful for the peace and comfort that comes from knowing we are still family and NOTHING can change that.